tired
What just happened?
So, I write because I want to know what I really think. It’s a way for me to throw it all at the wall and see what sticks. So I write my thoughts, feelings, ideas and hope somewhere on the page I can find some understanding. Cause right now one of the biggest things I’m searching for is understanding.
I don’t understand what just happened in the Supreme Court. I mean, I do literally, but I don’t understand spiritually. The logic in me, the humanity, the reason, the thinker in me really just doesn’t understand.
But something deeper in me, something I didn’t want to previously acknowledge….completely understands. So here’s what I want to say, and maybe someone will resonate.
This country sucks.
Like, it just fucking sucks! It doesn’t suck 100%, all of the time, but the fact that the Supreme Court just did that could not be clearer evidence they’ve been either bribed or threatened.
And that makes me want to scream, and flail and go egg the White House. It makes me want to riot, how could it not? This is so unfair and so illegal I want to tear my hair out from the follicles. But again, there’s something in me that kinda knew this might be coming.
I didn’t know, obviously, exactly what was going to happen. But I knew they wouldn’t stop, and I knew they would eventually come to a block. But hate is a powerful motivating force and the far-right groups in our midst are going dismantle whatever block they need to dismantle to achieve their goal. Even if the block is the Constitution.
“Dramatic!”
…..
Is it?
Am I being dramatic? I really don’t think I am anymore.
One of the skills people are supposed to develop by age 25 include critical thinking skills, which requires objectivity on occasion. So let’s get objective, and you tell me if, objectively, it’s totally fine for the Supreme Court to just have erased the entire checks and balances system.
Part of me wanted to take a nap when I heard the news; I was hit with this sad fatigue as I read the headlines. Not an unfamiliar one; it’s the fatigue of trying to tip the scales of justice back towards equilibrium. It’s the fatigue of watching really bad people do really bad things right in front of our eyes, and waiting for someone to intervene seriously.
It makes a bitch sleepy.
Now, my various privileges held me away from these kind of revelations until now - some of you already know justice is selective in this world. Maybe that’s why everyone’s either vaping nuclear sludge all day or trapped under their blankets basking in blue light.
It’s so tiring watching the worst people never get punished. I can think of so many people guilty of crimes against humanity, whose actions have killed people, that walk free and enjoy the finest things in life. And to vote, to mobilize, to donate to campaigns and see no one truly do anything about it is deeply, spiritually fatiguing.
Only the Nap Bishop can save us now.